I got Lost in Darkness

“To lose oneself in one's thoughts is to lose true life. One loses the connection to reality, to the here and now and to what is really happening outside our limited mind.”

Theoretically, I thought I had understood it perfectly. But practically it seemed still diferent.

And so it happened that on the penultimate day of my summer trip through Fuerteventura I was given a practical lesson from the universe to help me understand what happens when I get lost in my thoughts.

I was in Cofete, probably one of the longest beaches I had seen so far. Surrounded by nothing but mountains and sand : pure nature. The only way to get there was a dusty sandy road with countless holes and waves over which you could only drive gingerly if you did not want the car to fall apart.

The sun was getting closer to the horizon and I decided to take a walk along the shore.

I walked and walked and walked, completely absorbed in negative and anxious thoughts about the future, about my existence, my spiritual path, my choices and in general, my life. I became more and more immersed in the deep sea of doubts instead in the beautiful ocean around me. And this without having had any reason at all.

The dawn overcame me and after a while I realized that I should turn around slowly. In the meantime there was not a single soul left at the beach. After half of the way back it became darker and darker until I finally reached the shore in complete darkness. The cloudy sky did not even let the stars shine some light on me.

This had as consequences that I could not find the way from the beach to our camper, which was parked about 100 meters from the water, behind dunes.

So I stomped barefoot through the sand, which became more and more stony in the direction of the mountains, with the hope of seeing small lights somewhere that would orient me again.

That's when it hit me. This was a practical lesson from the universe.

If I had gone for a walk with my consciousness instead of my Monkey Mind, I would have noticed the falling dusk and the real distance from the car in time and would have saved me some sweat.

• How important is it for us to listen to our thoughts instead of breathing the moment?

• How much longer do we want to be guided by fear and doubt instead of simply seeing, feeling and pushing forward with our soul?

• How many more times do we want to lose ourselves in illusions of thought and miss the connection to universal truth?
  

For my part, I made the decision that evening to surrender to the universe. To enjoy the moments with my being and not tearing it up with my monkey.

For a life free of fear and doubt. For a life full of guiding lights. For complete trust instead of uncontrollable control.

And if you are wondering now : After what felt like an eternity I found our sleeping place thanks to the lights my friend turned on in the camper. Thus I was spared the night under the drizzle. So, on this way, thank you croquetita for being an important guiding light in my life!